June 1st
Where is the time going? It feels like yesterday that I found out that I was pregnant and now I only have less then 11 weeks to go till the peanut arrives! I am soooooooooo excited to meet her. I thought I'd write her a little something to just how excited we are so please bare with me.
Hannah,
I absolutely LOVE being pregnant. I love knowing that you are inside of me and that I am helping you grow. I love rubbing my belly and talking to you. I love feeling you make your presence known. I love that between 8-10 pm every night you have your daily work out and that your dad gets to join in. I love hearing your dad talk about how he went to work and told everyone how you were kicking the crap outta him. I love hearing your dad talk about taking you to jiu-jitsu to show you off. How he can't wait to be able to take you to the park and let me rest. How he can wait to see who you'll look like. I love that your dad nicknamed you The peanut. That's a story that I will tell you when you are old enough to appreciate it.
Almost every night your dad and I walk into your room with a smile on our faces and tell you that we are ready. We are ready to have you with us. That we can't wait to see you in your crib and hear you breathing. How we can't wait to smell your soft baby scent. We love you so much already that my memories of my life before you are already starting to fade as to make room for all the wonderful memories to come. You are so wanted and needed that my heart aches just waiting for your arrival. We waited a long time for you and just when the time was right you came into our lives. We are so lucky to have been graced with your existence and want you to always know how much we wanted you.
I am not afraid of the days a head. I am not afraid of having to endure labour as it only means that I will finally get to meet you. As anxious as I am for your to be born, I am trying to remember that we don't have much time left together. Time left with just you and I. I am the one you kick and punch and I am the one you wake up in the middle of the night cause you are on my full bladder. I am the one that knows when you are awake or asleep. This is our time together and I am loving every minute of it. The mood swings, fatigue, achy back, swollen ankles............is worth EVERY minute knowing that you have a comfy place to grow.
You are making me into the person that I always wanted to be when I grew up, a mom!! And for this, I am forever grateful! I promise to do my best in ensuring your life is a loving and fulfilling one. Please be patient with me as I have never been a mother before, just as I will be patient with you as you have never been a daughter before. I love you more then words can express and I just want you to always know that it was daddy and I who wanted you and the one time in my life that I do not feel guilt for asking for such a selfish thing.............YOU!
Love you now and forever,
Mommy
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panda_eyed / Website (1.6.06 14:38) Aww, what a sweet letter! Make sure you save it for your little princess when she's older. She's going to grow up with so much love around her that it makes my heart ache! Melted... |
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(1.6.06 14:42) Thanks Panda! There is so much more that I want to tell her. So much love in my heart to give her. I balled the whole time I wrote this. I only hope that I can be the mother that she needs. |
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panda_eyed / Website (1.6.06 15:13) I know you will be - you have the most important attributes a Mummy can have - the desire to be a good parent, and oodles of love to bestow. She will be such a special little girl! xx |
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(1.6.06 15:20) *blushes* thanks Panda! She is so special already! |
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(1.6.06 15:39) Ok *sob* I just want you to know *wipes eyes* that you are a beautiful mom already *blows nose*. That is a beautiful letter and little Hannah is going to be SOOOOOOOO lucky to have you and Mr. mylozmom as parents. I seriously sobbed as I read this. I already miss my "us" time with Allie. The way you worded it was perfect. Your a star. MUUUUUUUUUUAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH |
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(1.6.06 15:40) P.s Do you think the fact that I "miss" my pregnant time is a sign that I'll want more?? hummmmmmmmmmmmmm |
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(1.6.06 15:48) *grabs tissue and sobs* Thanks YM. I do, I really do LOVE my time with her. I will truely miss being preggers as I am enjoying it soooooo much. I didn;t mean to make you cry sweetie but I am glad that you were so touched by it. Thanks for the vote of confidence too. Hubby and I need it. As you know, you wonder what kinda parent you will be and I know if I am at least hald the parent you are, I'll do fine! |
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(1.6.06 15:49) Oh and YM...............BITE YOUR TONGUE!!! Do you hear the craziness coming from your mouth? 2 kids under 2 remember!!! |
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(1.6.06 15:54) Oh rite. Thanks for the reminder. Oh by the way here are two sweeties for you and peanut. |
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(1.6.06 16:06) *whew* that was surprisingly easy. I thought I was gonna have to smack you around and knock those thoughts outta your head! Thanks for the sweetie, sweetie! |
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(1.6.06 16:10) *sobs* You are just lovely! |
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Sherri / Website (1.6.06 16:26) Hey, where'd my comment go?? I left one first thing this morning. Anyway... There should have been a "warning to pregnant and emotional women" on this post. *wipes tears away** That had me in tears, the first paragraph. You're gonna be an awesome mom and Hannah is very lucky to you have guys as parents!!  xxx |
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(1.6.06 16:33) Will you adopt me? ;o) xxxxx |
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(1.6.06 16:39) *sobs uncontrolably now* YOU GUYS ARE ALL TOO KIND!! And yes Diva I'll adopt you, come on over honey! |
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(2.6.06 13:15) *starts packing her bags and looking for her passport* ;o) |
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(2.6.06 13:25) *starts to get spare room ready for Diva* *yells* COME ON DIVA!!!!!!!!!!!! |